Sarah | Colorado
I spent the last few weeks of 2018 buried in anxiety, frantically clinging to control and security.
My mental health and emotional availability took a deep-dive to the lowest they have been in years.
My inability to meet my own goals or set new ones for my life brought feelings of shame and inadequacy.
I was shutting down, closing off, and terrified.
Around that same time, I connected with Krista through a mutual friend.
I knew I had to meet with her. So, we met, and she listened.
She asked questions I would have never thought to ask of myself.
She brought intense, honest clarity and cut through the B.S. I thought was my struggle.
I found the habitual thoughts, beliefs, and burdens I had been carrying around weighed more than they were worth.
These were all things I knew, but was not willing to look at until now.
Krista sat with me and guided me through the hard inner work.
The tears, the shame, the laughter, the harsh realizations.
God, it was intense at times. Working through years of cemented pain was rough.
Through the work, I found me. My shiny, free, gentle, powerhouse self is finally here.
She gave me the insight so I could confidently create healthy boundaries, trust my journey,
release control, shift priorities that align with my heart, check my excuses at the door,
open communication lines, partner powerfully with God and find safety in him,
allow myself grace, heal and release past hurts, be the best mama/wife/leader/ ME and find joy through it all.
I have a two-year old daughter.
She watches me. She models me. She sees how I treat myself. She learns.
She will cope how I cope, see herself how I see myself, and care for herself how I care for myself.
My habits will be hers.
I saw my daughter, and she saw me.
I had to say enough. For her, for me, for those around me, and generations to come.
The cycle ends with me.
The gratitude I feel for Krista would take a lifetime to express.
A lifetime will have to do.